Last ache

Today...
finally took the courage to stop the relationship which ache over the past three years.

Without sadness without relief without any tangle.

The relationship is just too vague that you can tell the existence.

Wonder..what keep me holding it for so long...

Maybe is me, who thought he will still care, like erstwhile.

But...time proved it wrong.

:)

cheers.. everthing is over now...

Kungfu Panda

I know, for him I might be an insane lady for continuing laughing heartily whenever the scene was funny. However, it didn't bother me at all for that I still be myself eventhough he kept turning his head back to see who I am. I was not losing anyway but he who missed the funny part of the movie, who cares?

And maybe... for others this movie is lack of any special story line, and everything is just too common, but for me, it drives me to think deeper, spurs me to work something out for myself... the movie is all about a word, BELIEVE.

It recalls me of what I read from a book. The contents of a chapter is all about about believe. We are what we believe we are. This might seems ridiculous to most people out there but him. He went throught all the diversities and he really make it to the last.

I comprehent what the message delivered by the movie.



It is time... to believe in myself

Grow up

I thought, I won't shed a tear but somehow I burst into crying eventually when I left.

Unlike any others of my ex-colleague, in stead of leaving sharp after office hour, I had to stay back for some tasks hand over matter and eventually, my best friends and I was the last one to leave the office.

Before leaving, I managed to hide my anguish while I'm tidying and throwing some documents of mine in office which has been accumulated since approximately 3 years ago. All the merry and tears appears in my mind..

This day, leaving, was not anticapted. Not by my colleague and not even by myself because here is consider my another home. They all treated me like sisters. I've striven to be strong to leave my comfort zone to venture in other place.

Simply because I want to grow up!

Stepped out of the office, descending escalator, accepting wishes from my friends and watch them walking away from their back...I burst into crying...

I know, I missed them dearly!

传说中的友情

离开公司的日子近了
最近面对着友情的挑战

近来或许不知不觉的她, 起了不少改变
或许快离开的我, 对她来说以没什么价值吧
对我们的友情已不须像昔日般的呵护了
开始, 对另一个她阿谀奉承了

都看在眼里的
都感受到了
心好疼...
原来逃不过
人和人之间 商业化的友情

明白自己是对自己要求高 对别人要求也高的水瓶座
所以不停的告诉自己 对方没有必要跟自己一样
死守着一段没利益的友情
很努力的容忍 不向开始走远的她生气
提醒自己 人和人之间 要求的只是和平相处吧?

似乎开始被说服了
友情的纯真 与年龄成反比
开始不再期望
她不是传说中主张: 朋友是拿来利用的人

因为喜欢他

有没有试过

很努力地 保养自己一向不在乎的皮肤
蓄着他喜欢的发型
把挂满长裤的衣柜 渐渐的挂上花花裙子
努力的消瘦对别人来说已是很瘦了的身型
渐渐地开始学着吃一些平时不爱吃的东西
放弃了自己爱吃的零食
学习如何泡他爱喝的咖啡
不知不觉的把他的生活习惯 变成了自己的习惯
开始很努力的充实自己
控制着他不喜欢的孩子气
改掉自己的坏习惯
只因为喜欢他

但, 有一天他离开了

你是不是像脱了壳的虾 无力抵挡外来的一切
像断了触觉的蚂蚁 没有了方向
像哑了的蝙蝠 只能盲头乱飞
像没了灵魂的躯体 行尸走肉地过着每一天

亲爱的
加油吧...

机器人的温柔

巴士很久都没来

他等到不耐烦了
我于是 带着他步行到目的地

一路上他都与我靠很近
很感谢 反常地 他竟然没有怨言

我们上了火车
火车里有很多人
我们都只好站着

突然
背对着我的他 把颈项靠着我低着的头额
我没有乱动 心底是甜蜜的

渐渐地 他靠得更近了
我把脸颊紧贴着他的肩膀

他很顽皮 不停的动来动去
他很瘦 就连他身上的骨头都能感觉得到

第一次靠的那么近
平时的他是多么的冷酷
"机器人" 是我给他的外号
因为 对我来说 他是没感情的
很多东西都不为所动
但今天 是他最温柔的一次了

火车到站了
周围的景色渐渐转淡了
消失了
只剩下我一个人站着在那...



梦醒了...
能给我捕梦网吗?
让我能留住美好的一切
纵使那不是真的...

Farinelli

一部友人介绍的戏
真人真事的一部片子

故事的主角是 Carlo Maria Boschi
一位意大利18世纪被阉的男歌手

很佩服演员的演技
短短的片段当中
让人感受到了他生命的苦涩

看了之后很不舒服

我了解 这样能保存男生的童音
也能提高他们的音频 以至三个八度音阶以上
是歌剧的创举

当时在歌剧院的人们
你可以尽情欣赏歌剧的震撼
但欣赏的同时 没有感到一丝丝的悲凉吗?

原谅我...
看不下了...